Welcome to my Nightmare

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Sun, 09 Nov 2008 20:03:40 -0500

Now I'm calling all friends from all over New Jersey. This is Kyle Polo calling

Mon, 19 May 2008 04:22:05 -0400

I remember, when you were down and you needed a helping hand.

I came to feed you but now that I need you you wont give me a second glance.

Now I’m calling all friends from all over Jersey this is Kyle Polo calling.

I bailed you out when you were down on your knees, so will you catch me now I’m falling.

Help me now I’m calling you, can you catch me now I’m falling?

I remember when you were down. You would always come running to me.

I never denied you and I would guide you through all of your difficulties.

Now I’m calling all friends from all over Jersey.

This is Kyle Polo calling
I bailed you out when you were down on your knees.

So will you catch me now I’m falling

When you were broke you would come to me and I would always pull you round. Now I call you on the telephone, and your message tells me that your not there for me.

This is Kyle Polo calling
This is Kyle Polo calling

I stood by you through all of your depressions and I lifted you when you were down.

Now its your chance to do the same for me

I was the one who always bailed you out of your depressions and your difficulties.

I never thought that you would let me down, but the next time you’re in trouble better not come running to me

Now I’m calling all friends from all over New Jersey. This is Kyle Polo calling.

I bailed you out when you were down on your knees.

So will you catch me now I’m falling? Catch me now I’m falling!

A night of epicness

Fri, 02 May 2008 09:26:23 -0400

Ok tonight I do two things that were so awesome.

1 I went to see iron man and it was the fucking pwnage. I fucking loved that fucking movie so fucking much. I hated the original ending but I liked it so so so so so so so much more for the ending after the credit (For those of you who haven’t seen it stay till the end)

SPOILER ALERT!!!!

Iron man saying he was Iron man really fucking pissed me off. He goes around trying to say he is not Iron man for years and even brain washes people to cover his identity. Why the fuck would he tell everybody. But it was all ok. The very end they started the first of any crossover in which Samuel L Jackson showed up as Nick Fury. Granted he was Ultimate Nick fury but still the same NICK FUCKING FURY WAS IN IRON MAN!!!! This is fucking Epic. As soon as I saw him I freaked. I mean all I could think about was the fact that Tony Stark later takes Nick Fury’s job as leader of shield. It is fucking epic as hell. God I loved it. That scene gave the movie a ten in my book just because of crossovers. I fucking love crossovers.

Also tonight was the College Humor all nighter. It was so much freaking fun talking to my favorite people from College humor and having them talk about what I was saying. I felt so freaking cool. If they ever make a shoe on the head busted t I am so buying it. I was part of that night. Now I just wish I could actually work there.

I got a few people to pet dan. I talked to Jeff Rubin about ridding Bat-Man the ride since it was his favorite. I personally thanked Jake Hurwitz for telling me about tumblr. I played Marco Polo on the chat. I got Streeter and Sharah to say my name. It was so much fun the whole night through. Though I was annoyed cause I never got a call. They should so do another one of those, it was so much fun. Maybe not exactly that but live feed is ftw.

Well after this epic night I am tired. Chaos.

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Fri, 02 May 2008 06:09:27 -0400

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CollegeHumor All Nighter is underway. Tune in and watch our progress all night at www.collegehumor.com/allnighter.

Remembering my past one hidden nightmare at a time

Fri, 18 Apr 2008 02:47:15 -0400

Many people repress memories of their past to hide just how bad their childhood was. Sure some people hide memories of being beaten or something to those lines but those are not the only things that can happen to a child. The peers around a child may change them as well.

For the last few years I have been under the impression that my string of bad luck and pain started in the fifth grade. I thought that before then where happier times…. I was wrong. It wasn’t that the memories that I had from then weren’t as good as they seem, they were fine. The problem is I hid all the bad from myself for years. Over the last year I have slowly been picking up the pieces of these missing memories and slowly realizing my past wasn’t that great either.

Well tonight during a weird twisted chain of events while searching the interwebs my nightmares finally came true and I remembered my past. What kind of person I was then. Not only the fact that my past caught up with me but it also caught up with different parts of my past have intertwined (You don’t need to worry about that). What is really scarring me is I just keep repeating the same mistakes.

I look back now on my entire life and I realize that I just wound up pulling the same mistakes over and over again. As if my entire life is the same. I always knew this life was rather boring to me but I never would have realized I am stuck in a loop.

From today I am mentally drained and at this point I honestly don’t know if there is even a point to living this life anymore. I am doing the same thing I did in the past. I am stuck in this loop over and over again and no matter what choice I make there is no saving me…

I think I should just give in once and for all… Maybe I just deserve to die…

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No AS; Records Day 1

Fri, 04 Apr 2008 06:47:09 -0400

Though this is the first day I am posting this is not the first day I have been without Adult Swim. Adult Swim went down on March 27 it is now 6:30am April 4th.

Now the last few days it started out normal. I only watched some Nick at Nite some HBO and a little VH1. Then it got screwy around my 4th day things got screwy. I wound up watching Dawson’s Creek which I never watch. I knew something was screwed up then. Lets see how bad this gets.

Post time; 6:42am April 4th

Shows watched in past night:

Flavor of Love, The Office, Fresh Prince of Bel Air, Rosanne, Colbert Report.

Interpretation:

The only thing in this list that I wouldn’t watch on a normal night is Rosanne. I have usually always had a serious dislike of that show.Tonight I not only found myself watching it but actually realizing the different characters and their names and what sort of storyline was going on. Though I did notice that Eliot from Scrubs really sticks out in that show like a sore thumb, probably because I am a huge scrubs fan. Other than that the other shows seemed normal.

Health:

Lately I have been feeling really distressed and worried about a lot. I also found myself today full of rage and angry at the world. I did yell at the screen whenever a comcast commercial came on, but that is normal.

That’s all for today. This is day one so I don’t have much to report on. If you like this idea leave a comment… PLEASE!!! :(

An experiment in the works

Fri, 04 Apr 2008 06:33:53 -0400

For those of you who don’t know Comcast recently switched Cartoon Network over to their HD channels. This is fine and all if you have one of those very expensive boxes. If you are rich you can get one in every single room of the house. But if you are not loaded with more money then you can count in one lifetime then you can get maybe one of these boxes two if you’re really lucky, you are defiantly not getting one in every room of the house. This has caused a slight problem for me.

Now before we get on to my problems with this let me tell you something about this switch. Now if you ask a comcast representative why Cartoon Network is now only on their Digital Channels they will tell you it is because they want to increase the use of Digital or something like that. The real reason is plain and simple, THEY WANT YOUR MONEY! They want your money more then a tri-state area Governor on a sex binge. See people who watch Adult Swim at night usually have nothing better to do so they watch TV. They put on Adult Swim cause it is mind numbing humor which is great after a long day. What they want is for these people to put a box into every room of the house. This is bullshit I tell ya. I have had a long history of problems with comcast. One due to their extremely slow service and two due to the integration of Phone services just to later attack Verizon when they added TV.

Well I am way way way off topic. Here is what I really wanted to tell you. See I love to put on the TV at night and just relax and watch it. I used to just put on Adult Swim and had no reason to change channels, but now I am forced to. So after a few days I have noticed my changes in what I watch drastically change over what I used to watch. I am now watching shows that I hated or had no interest to ever watch. So what I am going to do is run an experiment.

I am going to test the different degrees of what shows I watch at night. Before I go to sleep every night I will post here on my Tumblr what shows I watched that night no matter how embarrassing they may have been (Which by my current selection could get pretty embarrassing) I will also post my health and how my life is going based on what I have been watching.

Now there is one room in my house that still gets Adult Swim. If I feel that my mood has changed due to the lack of comedy I will put on a night of Adult swim to see if that evens me back out.

Well lets see how this goes. First post will appear right after this post.

If the end of the world came things would be less boring

Thu, 03 Apr 2008 04:23:27 -0400

It is the truth. This world is too damn boring. No matter what you get bored eventually. I doubt you will get bored trying to fight for survival during the zombie apacolypse. I honestly just want something to happen. This world is way to damn boring. I’d rather put my life on the line then sit at my computer. Don’t get me wrong I love my PC but real life zombies would be more fun.

Finaly there is a pill that can put my leg to sleep and make me want to gamble. Sweet deal.

Wed, 02 Apr 2008 07:08:51 -0400

Finaly there is a pill that can put my leg to sleep and make me want to gamble. Sweet deal.

Watch out Pin!

Wed, 02 Apr 2008 05:33:34 -0400

Well today was a horrible day. And I was going to write something but I got tired so I think bed is more inportant then blogging tonight. Sleep > Then the problems of life. Its the truth.

I can't even go a week as a team member

Mon, 31 Mar 2008 02:39:28 -0400

Ok that is a lie because technically I still am. If you don’t know what I am talking about that is because you don’t know I went back to Six Flags. If you didn’t know i work for six flags for 1.3 years. Last season I was the lead of Cables aka the Skyride. Last year i absolutely hated it so I quit. Now I decided to come back and give Six Flags one more chance.

I went in wednesday for an interview (Never put in an application) I was hired right away. I started Saturday with my first day of training. It was boring but that’s orientation…. Discover for you. Sunday I went in for rides 101. Next thing I know during training I get taken out back and told to come in for a lead interview on Monday. I already know they want me going back to Cables I can already feel it. But I am going to try not to go there. I hope I can pull that off. But that’s really not the point. This time when i was going back all I wanted was just things to be simple be a team member for a while and then see where things went from there. When I started there I was only a plain team member for like a month before they made me and Jesus 3rd in charges. So needless to say I have always had responsibilities there, which I tell you right now I never minded. But not even a week from my initial hire day I already have a lead interview. Am I really that awesome? Maybe I can make it to supervisor by the end of the season. That would be fun. Then I could stop wearing those stupid yellow freaking shirts.

How a day changes

Sun, 30 Mar 2008 05:05:00 -0400

When I woke up this morning I had tons of ideas on a new blog. Now it is five am and I forget them all. Today was a very freaking long day and now I am lost in thought.

At the end of last night (Time is relative you might have seen it as 4am in the morning but to me it was the end of my night) I had wrote a very mean letter to Nicole full of truths. Which when I woke up and got ready for work was still a big thing on my mind. Then i went to SFGA having a horrible day not really seeing anyone I knew so I was slightly annoyed with the freaking training to say the least. Later I saw 21 with Frank. Good movie. I later played some Rock Band and Condemned with the guys. But even all this in this very long day I am not even thinking of. What I am thinking of is something at the end of the day.

I finally saw Donnie Darko which is making me think a lot. What is even crazier is the fact that a few things mentioned in this movie I have talked about in recent weeks if not recent months. It is kind of ridiculous. I need to get my hands on a good copy of this movie because it is really freaking good.

That’s all for now. May the Power Protect you.

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Fri, 28 Mar 2008 03:52:44 -0400

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I'm back baby

Wed, 26 Mar 2008 19:59:00 -0400

Yup I went back to six flags. I got a job and I start on Saturday. I hope this season goes better then it was. Apparently all the problems I had last season were fixed last season… well except for Free Fall being down. But what are ya gonna do. Oh yea and for once I will being doing doubles. Lets hope I don’t wind up regretting this. Though I did miss that place last season.

Lets hear it for having money again!

I seek further into loneliness

Wed, 26 Mar 2008 07:18:25 -0400

You know your loneliness hits hard when your therapist tells you the only way to fix the physical problems with your body is to get laid.

Ok so he isn’t my actual therapist but that’s what Cory says I need to do. Ok I treat him like a therapist but I don’t pay him.

Anyway yea I now have physical problems from being so lonely. I’d rather not discuss them. I’ll just say some of them have to do with my heart. Some but not all.

Other then that I fixed the layout of my page. I still have a few things to work on but I think it is coming out good so far.

Oh yea and I am heading back to Six Flags for another season. This one is going to be harsh. Lets hope I survive.

As I part I leave with some words that I have thought and sang a lot lately.

“Suddenly, I believe you are the one for me
Graciously you move through my closed hearts artery
Can I escape with my blue fallen reverie?
Why can’t it all be true?
Why can’t it all be true?

Wishin’ and wishin’ away at you God
Wishin’ and wishin’ away at you God…”